Sunday, September 20, 2009

1 Month

It has been 1 month. Today is September 19th...the day that I started bleeding was August 19th. While i was miscarrying my husbands grandmother was in the hospital dieing. Today she passed away. I know the loss of my child and her passing are both part of a great plan Heavenly father has for us.....who knows if they are together learning of the gospel....I know it should be a sad day but for me its a glorious time.....

Wednesday, September 9, 2009

September 9, 2009

I feel i have moved on.....I am not sadden by sudden triggers and am actually humbled and blessed....I may have not prayed as much as i should have but i think for all those who have I still was and am blessed. I am reading a book about suffering and how to endure through it. Its a part of life and it is to help build a foundation here on earth to help with me in the next life to come. My days are normal in every way and feel strengthen by everything. I just want to let you know that trials, pain, suffering are all part of our growing and becoming more like Him. And He will get us through anything.

Wednesday, September 2, 2009

Day 8 September 2 2009

So its been 2 weeks since I first started to bleed and a week and a half since I physically miscarried. I feel that I am getting through the days just fine. Today I actually cooked dinner. Granted it was spaghetti I still felt well enough to stand long enough to cook. However I feel I do not need to post everyday but post weekly or when ever i notice a change. I still feel tired and sometimes in pain but also I have 4 kids and that can slow down the healing process.....

Things will get better and they already have. It was a good day.

Also its important to get out for a drive any where to do anything......

Tuesday, September 1, 2009

Day 7 September 1st 2009

Today i felt a little sad this morning. I still feel tired and have cramping. I started to bleed again but it is only the dark color, nothing too heavy. I was researching about what i am going through and realized that even though it was a miscarriage it was still labor so there for i need to look up the effects of labor/ postpartum. I am still tired and don't have the strength to cook over the stove.

I am just so glad and comforted to know that i am not the only one.
Its still sad...being reminded everyday in every way.