I feel i have moved on.....I am not sadden by sudden triggers and am actually humbled and blessed....I may have not prayed as much as i should have but i think for all those who have I still was and am blessed. I am reading a book about suffering and how to endure through it. Its a part of life and it is to help build a foundation here on earth to help with me in the next life to come. My days are normal in every way and feel strengthen by everything. I just want to let you know that trials, pain, suffering are all part of our growing and becoming more like Him. And He will get us through anything.
So its been 2 weeks since I first started to bleed and a week and a half since I physically miscarried. I feel that I am getting through the days just fine. Today I actually cooked dinner. Granted it was spaghetti I still felt well enough to stand long enough to cook. However I feel I do not need to post everyday but post weekly or when ever i notice a change. I still feel tired and sometimes in pain but also I have 4 kids and that can slow down the healing process.....
Things will get better and they already have. It was a good day.
Also its important to get out for a drive any where to do anything......
Today i felt a little sad this morning. I still feel tired and have cramping. I started to bleed again but it is only the dark color, nothing too heavy. I was researching about what i am going through and realized that even though it was a miscarriage it was still labor so there for i need to look up the effects of labor/ postpartum. I am still tired and don't have the strength to cook over the stove.
I am just so glad and comforted to know that i am not the only one.
Its still sad...being reminded everyday in every way.
Today i was feeling allot better then i have been. I still have a little pain but other then that emotionally i am ok. I had to urge to get out today but i i was able to do was take the kids to the mall for some exercise. But i am now on a mission, trying to get my story out to as many people as I can. SO I hope you feel inspired to pass this along. My husband will be going back to work soon and I feel we are both ready. I ma just ready to get back the two weeks that i lost and am excited, when the time comes to maybe hopefully try again.
So due to the loss of blood the past week i am feeling tired more often during the day. This morning my husband took the kids to church while i stayed home and napped. But around 4pm and am too tired and my body is too achy to be motivated to make anything to eat for dinner. I know when blood work has been done on me like before giving blood or being pregnant my iron has sometimes been a little low. I still feel cramps. However the bleeding has stopped. thank goodness cause that has to be the most annoying part. To constantly pay attention to something that i have no control over.
By the end of the night i am in pain. My cramping, lower back and just plain tired. Hopefully I will be back to my old self again.
Today was Saturday so I didn't need to get up early. I slept well last night. I really didn't have an emotional breakdown today. Just a little cramping which hurt a little more due to gas. My husband and I are able to talk about it and not get too upset. As my days continue i realize how important it is to go on with my life. It was only a trial and i needed to endure through it. As more and more people find out the more i hear how I'll be able to get through it. To hear it as days go by i realize that i am well on my way to overcoming the emotional part.
I have felt really exhausted today but also have 4 kids and things that need to get done. We are hoping to have another child sometime in the future we will just have to see what the Lord has in store for us.
